Dear the honorable Mr. Tito Hayunanda, the founder of Traders Family, Mr. Rizki Aditama, the founder of Sekolah Trading, and MissXAUUSD, the founder of SatuPersen Trader. All of you are my inspiration during my venture to become a successful trader. All of you have the similarities in terms of risk management and survival in this industry.
Back in 2025, 6th of October precisely I began my journey as Forex retail trader, opened my first account and set it up on Meta Trader 5. Long short-story, for the first few positions I gained profit, and it took me only one week to double my deposit which was 136USD at that time. I doubled it into 272USD, I thought trading was so easy and my mind turned wildly. Imagining anything with the profit that I can generated, like man this was insane. My point of view about money was completely changed, the way I saw money was not same anymore. I realised people out there making millions or billions in profit from trading. On the other hand, I had not seen how long did it take them, how much money they had loss it and I did think of what kind of struggling they had been through in order to be gaining so much profit. I did not think of it on the first place, all I care was about money and profit.
Well, the market did not linger too long to make me realise that trading was not that easy, Julian. Two weeks after I doubled my profit, I withdrew half of it which was my initial deposit and it left me with profit that I used for trading. Boom, one week I blew that money and I had to do deposit again with my own money. The profit was gone, market took it back. I did not care at the moment since the numbers was small, just 136USD. I deposited again, and yeah you could guess the result, blown up. I believed that I had blown 11 accounts since the beginning of my trading journey, which I have been doing it for 5 months. Eleven accounts, like this is lunatic. If I keep doing this, I will stuck on this circle forever. Deposit, win, loss, deposit and repeat.
Look, Blowing up the account and losing that amount of money made me stress for little while and I turned into a vengeance traders for several times, trying hard to make the loss back into profit, It did not work at all. I ended up losing all my capital. Luckily, I watched Traders Family, Sekolah Trading and MissXAUUSD along this journey. I learned about risk and money management from them, all the information they had delivered were the same, control your risk so you could survive for the next day. They said the same thing every time they spoke about risk management, all the time. I could conclude that if I look after the risk, i could survive longer which gives me more time to study the market, price action and anything related.
At the first place, I could not accept it to be honest since I was looking to make money quickly. I wanted rich quickly and spend it on something that I wanted. That was my first intention for doing trading, but in reality nah I could not do that. It was the harsh truth, If I look myself back on the beginning of this journey, Gezzz I was so dumb. It took me a while to accept that trading was not making you rick quickly, instead trading will make you rich exponentially. From small progress that keeps going until make me realise that “Oh really, I have come this far on this journey”. The day I write this post, I have been trading for nearly 6 months and Im so grateful for everything that I have been through, found the mentors and learning the strategy that I can apply for my trading.
Those 3 figures above taught me a powerful lesson on this game, risk management is key to keep me for what I’m doing now. Without a proper risk management, I would not survive in long term which this is what I want it to. It seems small the return if I only risk 1% of my initial capital for opening a position in trading, but what If I keep doing it consistently? Like I keep winning 1% of my capital? Will it grow my account exponentially? Yes 100% absolutely. Thats why I have to change my bad habit and throw it away, risk management come first and profit will follow afterwards. Additionally, I confess that I still have FOMO and Fear in myself If I missed the trading but it wasn’t like the first time. I will take it easy, be disciplined and I will comeback in the future on this post. Lets see what happens….
UNRAVELLING 